hey again.

okae.todae i don seem to be talkin much in the morning..as i had alot of thinkin goin on in my mind..and i couldnt find anione to talk to in class..Ain's busy with her work..Firman's havin his own problem that he has yet to solve..n tat fren hu used to always be there..is no longer there..haiz...im like left alone..

all thiz gt me thinkin about wat my mom said last nite...it seems that there really isnt any hope fer him anymore...nothing can ever work out after all..n all this while,i hav been wasting my time..my families really hatez him...and nothing can ever change that..haiz...this really hurtz...

when i was thinkin..tat fren came and said hi..bt still it doesnt make any diff..he's not tha same person i used to noe...well i did talk to firman abt it and ain...i was a lil relief...until..........firman talk to me abt his probs and it seems his really havin a hard time and as fer me..i might even be losing a fren again...

im juz so dissapointed with everything tats happening around me....all my frenz are changing fer the worst..and it hurtz so bad wen a stupid mistakes could end their future..i don get it..y do they hav to do what they did..its all so stupid...it doesnt gain anything...wen firman told me about wat could possibly happen,i cried during maths lesson.i was saddened n afraid....coz i don wanna lose a fren hu has taken gd care of me.and always there...we're like brothers and sisters...through gd times or bad we stick with each other though some may hav found their real frenz..but tat care fer eah other never fades...tats hw strong all our frenship is..

haiz.....y does all our frenship hav to end up a sad story???and to tat fren...i noe we used to promise to always be there fer each other..but where did the promise go???i realised that every this time of the year,eu never will talk to me or maybe our frenships falling apart...even last year...and the year b4...n even now...y???izzit like a curse or something....???oh well...i juz hope all of this would resort to somethig soon....

but behind all this sadness tat happen todae,during malay lesson cikgu has made us all laugh...with all the crappy jokes by us and cikgu...we played tricky games and everything seems like normal daes...heh.finally i was smiling and laughing again...after school me n my galz went straight home..all nt in da mood to stay back...hah