hey.

todae.i was bz doin my art....darn!!its too much fer me to take..there's so much to do but yet so little time.luckily Fairul call and came to help me with one of the drawing..hah.thanx fairul.

Fairul's an x student of orchid park..well i've known him since sec 1 during orientation camp.hah..real funny..aniwae..its been awhile since we last met..so he was around khatib therefore we met up.well he did my art and we talked abt our lives tats going on lately..seems like he's havin lotz of probs...and so do i..hah.i really do pity him...well fairul..cheer up aite..and do visit orchid park and see the students now..damn..they're so much worst then all the alumni..haas.

well..while sittin down with Fairul..i went to check the letter box too..and i've received another letter from him.it seems like he still loves me but in the other hand he don trust me n he threatens me again..haiz...y???i seriously donnoe wat he really wans from me...Fairul noes abt him and he told me that i shud not be thinkin bout him..in fact i should not continue this way but to really moved on..juz let him fade away from my mind...it then gt me thinkin..

when i gt home..mama brought me n my brothers go fetch my dad then go mkn...
after eating while on the way home in the car,i msg the galz and asked them fer their opinions.nurul said tat i shud move on coz he's nt the guy tat im gonna be happy with forever...ain said that watever decisions i made she'll support me and she'll always be there and the geeks are still there fer me at anytime.as for shaq,she said tat i shud do wats best for me..

and after all the thinkin...i've made up my mind..all of this shud end...how long muz i stay like this....feeling depressed and in doubts...havin only memories of our past.which i don wanna think about...and so i think my frenz are rite..i do deserve someone better.someone hu can love me n treat me right.hu wont hurt me deep inside like hw Fairuz did..

Fairuz...i hav always loved eu..and i hav never thought that things would end up this way...but im sorry.. but its time that i find real happiness...i cnt stand being alone and only shedding tears fer eu..i've never met someone like eu..eu've made me see the reason why i need to love.eu've made me realise the meaning of love.all of the changes happens in my life ever since eu open up my heart..in a good way and also bad..but eu've promised the ferst time we talked tat eu'd changed but now......eu juz repeat the same mistakes again...im sorry fai...but its over....im nt gonna wait any longer...im moving on...

i may nt find the good in life now....but someday i will...and all ur threatens will never scare me...if eu really do love me...eu'll definitely wanna see me happy..
i guess heres the last goodbye.....