hey.

todae i finally went to school..haha..i gave all my bestiez their gifts..haha..in xchange Fatt gave me a ferero roche choc.soo swit...Fatt keep messing up my hair larh todae..urgh!!Menyampah.i noe Firman miss me...so happy to see me in school..haha...swit larh all my frenz..love them loads.
and there was this workshop thingy..lame larh..but kinda fun...with Firman,Ain,Saeed,Aliaa in the grp..kecoh to the max..and i sux at being the banker...always daydreaming..haha...

Aniwae.we then had our lunch...Fatt n I....we're bth were emooing in class..haha.as always larh eh the two of us...Ain plak layan the boys..haha...always kene bully...soo kesian dier...hehe.we finish at 12.10.
ain n i was glad to noe that we get to move up to sec 4b2 n there aren't any retainees in 4b1.it means tat fayyad doesn't hav to stay back...haha..everyone was soo happy fer him tat Syaza and Wanie cried..hahaz.

After school,Ain n I went to Nurul Hse.we ate meatball wit mee....Ain fried fer us nugget...i was munching n munching on potato chips n some kueh rayer while watchin tv..haha.cant stop eating larh sey..then we listen to songs..
Ain being very the sleng...with all her crappiness that me n Nurul couldn't stop laughing...haha..hilarious Ain..
then Nurul said tat she felt like cryin..and i told her so did i...

and i almost did..but i tried nt to..i don wan to...
i mean...well..todae is his burfdae..but we are sooo far apart..and it breaks my heart to think abt all tat we've been through..sacrifices..i donnoe if i could actually let it go fer real...though i may hav moved on...but im still struggling to let go of everything...y???Im nt sure of my feelings animore....I can never get over eu...y??but i want to....Haiz..y do eu hav to be the one to make me suffer this way..hurt me deeply n pretend i'm nt there...plz...leave me alone.let me be happy with wat i hav now..im nt willing to go back to our history..its too painful to face again..and im nt willing to share my love n sorrows with eu animore...i wanna let go..i've found the love.that once used to be ours.and its nt eu animore...i've moved on...i hav...:(

But y cant i let it go....typing this makes me cry...sorrie it didnt turned out the way we planned..but we bth made our mistakes..n eu left me all by myself..don eu noe hw i feel inside..dissapointed..hurt...pain..everything...but i only gt myself to blame..i was never harsh on eu..i was too nice..forgiving..tats the reason eu never did change.eu think i wont mind..well..now............haiz.....im the one in pain..:(

P.S:HAPPY BURFDAE FAIRUZ:..(