hey...

well....todae...i feel like crying soo much.....i donnoe y...thinkin of the past..those whom i've hurt...and those whom hurt me...it all seems sooo connected....and now its all haunting back at me.....i juz needed a dae where someone could really sit beside me at a place where i could juz cry out and sae wat is holding back inside me...all my love life...frenship.....its all so painful to feel.....

seeing my past love life happy makes me happy but hurt at the same time....y??i'm suppose to be happy too but y am i not???i've got my present love life now......and he means everything to me...he means soooo much to me....and i'm glad i met him....he never wanna see me hurt nor cry...and..i feel that i have hurt him in sooo many ways indirectly...i may not see tat he's hurt but i can feel that he does....with the words thats coming out from my mouth......i noe its all hurting him...and i'm sorry love.

but some things from my past are hard for me to get over with...haiz....i can sae tat i do hav a bad history of my past...love...eu might noe me well...but eu ought to noe me even more...there's so much i want to say...but i got no one to pour it out to....love i wanna tell eu but i'm afraid i might hurt eu even more...typing this down makes me cry....

i feel so useless when it comes to entering a relationship...and the only reason for it is all from the past....y must it always be the past tats still lingers in me...y cant i forget them...n there are things from the present tats always reminding me of the past...and then i will get soo emotional....

Darling...i'm sorry if i'm being too emotional whenever we argue or whenever eu talk abt some things tats reminding me of my past..i don blame eu darling....i've only got myself to blame.....i'm not perfect and there are many mistakes that i have done in my past life...but now that my galfrenz are back with me again...n now that i've met eu...everything changed....

eu've promise me nt to hurt me nor to make me cry...eu've promise to make me forget him...n i noe ur tryin real hard darling...i'm sorry that it takes time for me....and i noe i've been throwing my tantrum on eu....i'm really sorry....i didn't mean too but i was juz too emotional abt it....sorry darling....

Darling...i'm grateful of ur love....eu've been my addiction since the ferst dae we've met....i don't care wat others think of us but ur the happiness that has entered my life.....i'm ur half soul...n ur my emo love.The emo love that i can never find in anyone else....eu used to tell me that i will not write abt eu in my entry..but hey....i did...coz...i want ppl to noe that ur the one that has brought me happiness in my life again....Darling ur the sweetest sin that ever happen to me......and tats wat makes eu soo special....i love eu Darl....and i miz eu soo bad...


our souls...they are one..
they will never be able to part..
even if eu and i are like years apart..
we have knitted our hearts together..
withe the thread of our love for each other...
this is why this burden is upon us..
this is why we will never forget one another.
and if eu truly ever decides to let go..still
every inch of me will suffer..
coz our souls they are one..
and can never be apart.